Category Archives: depression

Stumbling on….

This week has been a strange week for me, a set back really in my recovery from depression; I have found it hard to motivate myself, twice I went back to bed because I did not have the energy for … Continue reading

Posted in depression, doubt, self care, shame, Uncategorized | 3 Comments

Dying and rising…

I am pondering the story of Lazarus ( John 11), not the part where he dies and is subsequently raised, but wondering what if felt like to be released from his grave clothes to a new chance at life. Did … Continue reading

Posted in depression, doubt, love/ life, mindfulness, poetry/ meditations, Uncategorized | 2 Comments

Life lessons…

Most people who read my blog will know that I am struggling with a severe bout of depression at the moment, this is not something I am trying to hide, nor am I ashamed of it, it simply is. I … Continue reading

Posted in depression, Divorce, doubt, mindfulness, prayer, Seeing, Uncategorized | 4 Comments

Hope remains…

No place to go, No headstone, No memorial, Photos too painful, Memories mixed, Anger, pain, brokenness… Condolences are muted, Or unspoken As there are no words or cards for this, Only an acceptance That what is Is not what might … Continue reading

Posted in depression, Divorce, doubt, poetry/ meditations, prayer, Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Wheat and weeds….

Yesterday, and about a week before I had blogged about living with depression, what it means for me, and how it feels. I hope that I wasn’t being too self indulgent or too self-centered, and I apologise if I was, … Continue reading

Posted in depression, doubt, mindfulness, Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Transforming a bad day… writing it out!

Today is a bad day, I wish I could tell you why, why I woke at 5am, with voices and accusations of the past echoing around my head, and why the lists of ought-to-do’s loom large in my mind. I … Continue reading

Posted in depression, doubt, mindfulness, Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Calling the Black Dog by name…

Dear Black Dog, you and I have a strange relationship, at one time you were there in my life making your presence felt everyday, blocking out the sun and demanding attention. I learned to tame you by befriending you, by … Continue reading

Posted in depression, doubt, self care | 7 Comments